Day to day life notations.

Status: Defeated 

I’m just tired of playing this game of pretend, but I can’t stand to reveal the truth behind a false smile, or a forced laugh. I can’t make it obvious that I am not content.

Who would think that betrayal could cause such self-despise? But I guess you could say that it was my fault. You see, I have this undying need to fix people; to be so involved in someone’s life on such a personal level and be a part of them. I just wanted to be your solution, your cure.

I laugh inside, I really do. I laugh because I’ve become a hypocrite. Everyday, I’m lying about how I feel.

But, I’m lying to shield myself from more of your lies.